Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Insane in the membrane?

Hi Ladies! I hope all is well. Sorry I have not been the greatest blogger lately. So let me share whats been going on.

Training has been going well. I like my new job so far and it is such a relief not having to drive 200 miles a day. Plus it looks like hes going to be stationed 37 miles away from my new job =) Great news right?  But I'm debating whether or not I want to move in together.

You see Mr. C didn't want to move in right away =( At first my feeling were a little hurt, but I was ok with it.  We have never really lived apart throughout our entire relationship and he wanted to see what it would be like. Plus part of me thinks that Mr. C was at a fork in the road in regards to our relationship.  Meaning that I think he was trying to figure out if this was going to lead to the M word.

I've been engaged before, so I'm in no rush and in fact I'm all for taking things slow. Mr. C has had some friends that have had some bad experiences. When he found out that he was deploying, everyone asked him how did Jess take the news?  It almost made me feel as though they thought I couldn't handle the "military lifestyle".

But I could and I did. I made sure the apartment was taken care of after he had to leave. I took care of all the loose ends and finished moving myself back to my parents. And I did all of this while still working full time, because my last crappy job wouldn't give me days off.

I've sent numerous care packages, the biggest one was 28 pounds ;) And I continued to send them after I left my job, in fact I worked extra part time hours at my old dept store job so I could pay for them. He was able to share with some of his friends there and in fact all of them called him spoiled. Shipping is definitely a nightmare. Side note: He does spoil me as well, very much so.

But I did it all because I love him and I plan on always being there to support him in any way I know how.  So now he has been talking about moving in together sooner... And you know what I'm in no rush. I had already planned on just staying over on weekends anyway. I know he wants a long term future with me, but I just wish he would discuss it more. And part of me feels like if he didn't see this side of me over the course of deployment he would not have wanted to move in together as quickly. So my question is what would you do? Would you move in?  

One more thing:  My title was Insane in the Membrane because I'm doing Shaun T's INSANITY! I'm on my second week. I gotta look good in my bikini while I'm sipping margaritas! HA

2 comments:

  1. i think you always have to do what you feel led to do. if you think it is the right moment, the right time then by all means do it ... but if you want to take your time then i would do that too ... it is all about how you feel!

    ps. Shaun T's INSANITY looks insane! goodness, i think i need that in my life!

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  2. Thank you! I had a good conversation with him about it and we are figuring it out. I love him, but even his own mom says he is dense ha ha. So he is starting to understand now and I was wrong about some feelings I thought he had.

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