Yuck

That is just how I feel right now.  I have not forgotten about posting I've just been a little down.  I will be back soon.
~Jess~

The day I almost cut my hair off...

So I've been attempting to go natural and today I was annoyed with my hair.  So I annoyed I almost cut it, but I didn't and I probably won't.  I've never had really short hair before, I'm so glad I didn't cut it and I think Mr. C is too.

On another note I have to start studying for the GRE soon and I start my new full time job Thursday. I'm so excited!

I will finish the Mr. C story tomorrow! Exciting stuff right?? ha

An Off Day....

Yesterday was kind of an off day for me.  I've noticed that my mood is closely linked to C and the same goes for him.  So every now and again I get.... well annoyed.

Don't get me wrong C is a great guy.  He's loving, attentive, generous and he is my best friend. I know he goes out of his way to talk to me with the little free time that he has. But sometimes I don't know if he realizes that I do the same.  That I always keep my phone nearby and on instant messenger.  That I try to stay near the house so that we can video chat. So I wonder how he is going to handle it when I start working full time again during the hours we usually chat.

So yesterday we were supposed to be "video chatting", but it felt as though I was doing most of the chatting and he was giving me occasional responses. Might I add that he was web surfing at the same time... So shortly after I told he I could talk to him later and he said "you sound disappointed". Of course I said no I'm not, even though I was.  He said "we've talked a long time", it was maybe 20 minutes or so. We said our love yous and ended our chat.

Why was I disappointed?  Because our last couple of combined instant messaging conversations before that were for maybe a total of 15 minutes with pauses included.  Because I hate feeling as though I'm leading a conversation.  It makes me not even want to talk in the first place. Of course I'm not going to ignore him, but maybe I just should not be as quick jump.

A few months ago C told me "babe we have to let things happen naturally", meaning that we shouldn't plan out when we could talk. At the time I was store manager during 4th quarter working 70 hour weeks. I tried to explain to him that I did not have a lot of time and that I really had to put forth effort so that we could talk, but he did not seem to get it. So... for the next week I let it happen "naturally" and we did not talk for five days.  And he finally realized that maybe there should be more thought there.

I've learned to write emails that I never send to help me vent. Venting is an awesome tool! It helps me feel better and to get my thoughts together. It also provides me with the opportunity to censor myself.  After I vent, if there is something still bothering me and I realize that its not me being delusional I bring it up in the form of an e-mail. It has worked wonders for us.

So I guess for the next few days I will let things happen naturally, if we talk we talk and if we don't we don't. So why am I clicking over to instant messaging to see if he is "available".

"That Couple"

You see Mr. C and I are that couple, you know the one that sits together on the same side of the booth. I know it is a little weird, but it is also kind of nice too. And to think I use to sometimes snicker at couples I saw doing this!

But this is not the real topic of my post today. C and I are obviously a little different. From our pictures you can tell that I'm black, but you can't tell that C is white and one fourth Asian. He is often told that he looks to be of Spanish descent, but not necessarily in those words.

So... we are technically considered an interracial couple, even though I don't usually refer to us that way.  When I talk about C, he's just C to me.
The guy who holds my heart (couldn't resist a corny phrase in there). 

I labeled this post "that couple" because...

~We are that couple that tends to turn heads when we enter a room, but we are  

   modest about being so attractive he he ha ha. 

~We are that couple that is always given a welcome back when we visit certain

   places because they "remember us".

~We are that couple that tends to surprise people when they are introduced to 

   the other half of our said couple. And that goes across the board.

~We are that couple that had to say goodbye in an airport in NC so that he could  
   serve overseas.
~We are that couple that tells each other just how much we love each other  
   on a daily basis whether through email, IM, or my favorite... video chat.

But what some people don't realize are our similarities, because they only see the outward differences.

We are both:

~College graduates and want to get our masters.

~Have the same faith.

~Have the same values.

~Are Family oriented.

~Working on getting settled in our careers and finances.

~Working towards marriage and "Pandas" ha
~Committed to maintaining and strengthening our relationship.
~And a bunch of other stuff! ha


We have not faced problems in our relationship due to our differences.  Both of our families support us, as well as our friends. We live in the Carolinas and there has been nothing other than the occasional long stare. 


So what about you all? What have been some of your experiences as:


~A military couple?
~Interracial couple?
~Long distance couple?
~Or just your experiences as a couple in general....


~Jess~

=)

So I just finished video chatting with Mr. C. I am constantly amazed that it is possible to love someone so much and for them to love you equally as much.

I also mailed out 6 bottles of Buffalo Wild Wings Sauce, Mr. C's special request.  I made sure to stock up on mailing boxes and custom forms, so I should be good until he comes back.

Its amazing how by moving back to my tiny small town I seem to run into everyone I don't want to.  I'm so glad I took a few extra minutes to make sure my sweats matched and put a hat on my head. Win!

Jess

Dang...

So I know I said I would continue the story and I will very very soon... I pinky promise =)


     Thinking about our beginning makes me miss Mr. C even more than I already do.  And to think that he could have been home some time this month before his deployment got extended just downright sucks. But I have a great support system in my Mom.

     Mr. C is my best friend and I'm so happy to have him in my life.  The good thing about this deployment is the fact that our relationship is so much stronger.  You see this might sound a little scandalous, but C and I moved in together around three months after we met.  Shocking right??? And totally not like us, but hey it worked and I will talk about it in another post.

"Wow my hand looks huge here!! I'm not putting uncensored pictures up of Mr. C until after I tell him about the blog and get his permission". Jess

     So right now I'm just thinking about the future. All the things we want to do when he gets back its gonna be A.W.E.S.O.M.E.  Mr. C has already told me that he wants to spend the first couple of days alone. Wink...Wink... Yeah, I just can't wait for some good... FOOD.

       Ha, what did you think I was gonna say...but that too.  You see one of the things I miss the most are our date nights.  Mr. C is a fat kid, meaning that he eats a lot, but he works out a lot too in order to compensate for it.  Unfortunately he has turned me into a semi fat kid and I don't work out nearly as much as I used to and I need to, but that's for another post.  I miss our dinners a lot, whether it was at our favorite place we love, take out or my homemade meals (its true the way to a mans heart is his tummy).

I shall post again soon, Jess. 

Sorry

I told myself that I was  going to blog every day and well.....I have not.  I mean I have all the time in the world, I'm working a part time "retail job" until I start working full time at the end of January.  So I have officially determined that I have the Christmas blues, because I miss C.
 You see this:

This is Christmas sometime during my college years, notice the tree in the background and the big smile. Now this was before I met C, but I was in the Christmas spirit.  So in order to perk myself up here is our "First Date Story".

Sooo...  I mentioned earlier I met C through a dating service.  My headline had some smart ass comment to bait all any potential good catchs.  C bit the bait and and sent me a wink which I returned, he then sent me a message.  His message commented on my interesting profile and asked if there was anything else that he should know about me.  I in turn gave a witty response, which further reeled him in.  We only messaged each other three times before he wanted to meet.  I was a tiny bit hesitant at first, we had not even spoken to each other on the phone.  Plus the date was kind of last minute, but I agreed for the possibility of free drinks. Ha Ha.

To be continued....