I think that I am going to challenge myself to write one post a day for the entire week to get in to the habit of posting more frequently. This post will count as Monday's.
So to finish where we left off;
I knew everything was going to be ok. I had been so anxious, confused, lost and upset, but none if it mattered. I could have lost him. The irony is that I was having a conversation with a friend on whether or not I might have to leave and in that same time frame he was in major bus/car accident.
I remember feeling really bad at first. Here I was thinking of leaving and I was the first person on his mind. It took me a while to get over feeling guilty about that.
A couple of weeks passed and he still didn't give me an answer about the direction we were headed in. I was ok with it though, not nearly as upset as I had been weeks earlier. I already knew that everything was going to be ok.
Then one night he told me what I'd been waiting to here. That he knew that he wanted me to be his wife and to have a future together. Apparently the accident really opened his eyes.
Through this all I've learned a lot about myself I have way more patience and strength then I though. I've grown as a person, we've grown as a couple and know we are an inseparable team ready to face whatever life throws our way. Together.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
I'm back, for real this time! Ha
It's been quit a while and a lot has gone on in the last 6 months or so.
Mr. C and I hit a rough patch...a really rough patch in which he just wasn't as sure about our future as he once was. To say that I was hurt would be an understatement. We were in a limbo for a couple of months, trying to move on as though things were normal but both in a sad place. For him it was hard to know that he was hurting me by having uncertainty and for me it was hard just not knowing.
So I did what I could to focus on what I had control over, my health and career. I told myself and him that I had in fact set a deadline in which I would walk away if we did not come to some understanding. See Mr. C was set to deploy again and I refused to enter another deployment with so much uncertainty. To me two years was more than enough time to know if we were going to the next level or not. To his credit Mr. C is the most kind and loving boyfriend a girl could ask for and he would do anything for me. Mr. C has also had somethings on his plate which contributed to that uncertainty that aren't for me to share.
And then in December everything changed. Mr. C's Car go hit by a bus, you know one of those big commuter buses. I was so scared when I first got his call, but then he told me the only person he wanted to talk to and see after the accident was me. And for the first time in months I did not feel as anxious about our future anymore.
TO BE CONTINUED....
Mr. C and I hit a rough patch...a really rough patch in which he just wasn't as sure about our future as he once was. To say that I was hurt would be an understatement. We were in a limbo for a couple of months, trying to move on as though things were normal but both in a sad place. For him it was hard to know that he was hurting me by having uncertainty and for me it was hard just not knowing.
So I did what I could to focus on what I had control over, my health and career. I told myself and him that I had in fact set a deadline in which I would walk away if we did not come to some understanding. See Mr. C was set to deploy again and I refused to enter another deployment with so much uncertainty. To me two years was more than enough time to know if we were going to the next level or not. To his credit Mr. C is the most kind and loving boyfriend a girl could ask for and he would do anything for me. Mr. C has also had somethings on his plate which contributed to that uncertainty that aren't for me to share.
And then in December everything changed. Mr. C's Car go hit by a bus, you know one of those big commuter buses. I was so scared when I first got his call, but then he told me the only person he wanted to talk to and see after the accident was me. And for the first time in months I did not feel as anxious about our future anymore.
TO BE CONTINUED....
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